Irish woman

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FUTILITY


I’M LOOKING DOWN A LONG BLACK HOLE,

AND FEELING A BLEAKNESS IWITHIN MY SOUL…

I WANT TO MOVE MY HANDS AND FEET,

BUT KEEP ENCOUNTERING SWEET DEFEAT.

I FEEL SO EMPTY, ALMOST SUSPENDED

IN A HANGING NIGHTMARE THAT’S NEVER ENDING.

MY MOUTH IS TURNING DOWN AND DOWN

MOULDING SLOWLY TO A PERMANENT FROWN.

I CANNOT SEEM TO SEE THE LIGHT

I FEEL THAT I HAVE LOST MY FIGHT

I HOPE IT PASSES SWIFTLY TODAY

I HOPE THIS LIMBO GOES AWAY.

I CANNOT BARE THIS WRETCHED FEELING.

WHICH ALL THE WHILE I AM CONCEALING.

I LOVE MY PEOPLE THROUGH AND THROUGH

AND I DON’T WANT TO MAKE THEM BLUE..

I LIE SO STILL AS MY BONES ARE TENSING.

WHILST HOPE AND LOVE I AM DISPENSING…

A RAY OF SUNSHINE  EVER GLOWING

A HIDDEN HEARTACHE NEVER SHOWING

A WAVE THAT NEVER HITS THE SHORE

IT JUST SWEEPS OVER MORE AND MORE…

AN ANGRY GUSH, IT HITS THE WALL

CRESCENDOING BACK INTO A FALL

AND IT WILL DO SO FOREVER MORE, 

THE FUTILITY GETTING HARD TO IGNORE.

JUST LIKE A WAVE THAT REACHES IT’S PEAK

AND THEN IT RETRIEVES AND CRUMBLES SO WEAK.

THAT IS THE WAY THAT I FEEL TODAY

A FEELING OF BLEAKNESS WHICH WONT GO AWAY……………

 

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PAIN…………..


I’M STANDING ON A LEDGE LOOKING OUT AT THE BLACK

NO GOING FORWARD AND  NO GOING BACK

I FEEL THE REJECTION OF LIFE IN MY MIND

LIGHTS ARE FADING , I’M GOING BLIND………..

I’M DIPPING MY TOE IN A VALLEY OR MIRE,

ALL PAIN IS LEAVING, ALL NEED, ALL DESIRE……

THE EMPTINESS IS SWALLOWING ALL HOPE WITHIN

A VORTEX IS LOOMING TO WHICH I MUST SWIM

A VORTEX OF HOPE,  A VALLEY OF PEACE

A RELIEF FROM ALL PAIN, A HAPPY RELEASE……….

MY INNER LONELINESS OF RAWNESS AND PAIN

TEMPERED BY FEELINGS OF SORROW AND SHAME

MY SENSE OF HOPELESSNESS, TORMENT AND DESPAIR

SO MANGLED INSIDE ME , NOBODY’S AWARE…..

THE PAIN OF NOW KNOWING MAN’S INDIFFERENCE TO OTHERS

AGAINST WHAT GOD CALLS OUR SISTERS AND BROTHERS……..

THE PAIN OF A HEARTACHE SO TENDER , SO RAW

NOW FREEZING SOLID , SO NEVER TO THAW…….

THE FACE OF CHRIST ON THE CROSS UP ABOVE

DYING FOR OTHERS IN AN ACT OF LOVE……..

THE BLOOD OOZING FORTH FROM A HEART SO GIVING

FOR THOSE THAT ARE DEAD AND FOR THOSE THAT ARE LIVING

AND ALL FOR WHAT, I HEAR MYSELF SAY

TO SHOW US THE FUTURE? THE MEANING? THE WAY?

LONELINESS EXUDED FROM  CHRIST ON THAT CROSS

BETRAYED BY ALL, HIS CHARACTER LOST

BUT THE ONE REMAINING IMAGE WHICH I IMPART

IS  THE BLOOD THAT FLOWS FROM HIS SACRED HEART….

HIS HEART DID BLEED FOR ALL TO SEE

THIS PINNACLE OF HUMANITY………..

FOR IF OUR HEARTS CEASE TO CARE

AND OTHERS ARE LET FALL TO DESPAIR,

THE MEANING OF LIFE BESTOWS NO END

THE HUMAN SPIRIT  KNOWS NO FRIEND

AND THE SUFFERING I FEEL TODAY

WILL RESULT IN MY ENDING FATE

LIFE IS PRECIOUS WHEN WE ARE LOVED

IT SOOTHES US LIKE A GENTLE DOVE……

BUT WHEN WE FEEL NO LOVING SOURCE

OUR BLOOMING STOPS, OUR LEAVES TURN COURSE…

AND THEN WE FADE IN THE COLD OF NIGHT

NOBODY TO HELP US WITH OUR PLIGHT

NO LIGHTHOUSE TO GUIDE US FROM ROUGH SEAS

NO HELPING HAND WHEN WE FALL ON OUR KNEES…

DON’T ASSUME THAT YOUR SISTER OR BROTHER

DOES NOT NEED THE LOVE OF ANOTHER…..

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TRUTH


THE TRUTH IS IN OUR HEARTS YOU KNOW

  AND YOU CAN DENY IT, EVEN THOUGH

YOU HEAR IT CALLING IN YOUR EAR,

DAY AFTER DAY AND YEAR AFTER YEAR

THE TRUTH IS SCREAMING IN YOUR HEAD;

CALLING TO YOU AGAIN AND  AGAIN,

BEGGING TO TO TURN AROUND

AND FACE THE MUSIC BEST YOU CAN

BUT NO, WE DENY IT, AND SUFFER ON

DAMPING DOWN THE FIRES WITHIN, 

ENDING UP WITH HOLLOW HEARTS 

 AND LIVES AS MISERABLE AS SIN.

LISTEN NOW, TO WHATS ON YOUR MIND

SEEK FOR THE TRUTH, AND YOU SHALL FIND.

OR BURY YOUR HEAD FOREVER MY FRIEND

TILL THE DAYS OF ALL YOUR LIFE DO END……………….

 

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SHATTERED DELUSIONS


SHATTERED DELUSIONS ARE TWICE AS PAINFUL

BECAUSE IN HER HEART OF HEARTS SHE KNEW,

AND YET BENEATH THE BUBBLING POISON,

LITTLE SEEDS AND ACORNS GREW……….

SHATTERED DELUSIONS TWICE AS PAINFUL,

ALWAYS HOPING AGAINST THE ODDS

THAT THESE DELUSIONS WOULD FIND SOLUTIONS

WHILST PRAYING TO A SILENT GOD.

DEVASTATION OF THE SPIRIT

DIGNITY POISONED, WRITHING IN PAIN

ALL THAT WASTED LOVE AND EMOTION

ALL THOSE ILLUSIONS WERE  IN VAIN;

ILLUSIONS DILUTED WITH DELUSIONS

TRYING TO PAINT A PICTURE BRIGHT

NEVER GOT  TO SEE THE COLOURS

AS ALL PAINTING DONE AT NIGHT……….

SHATTERED DELUSIONS BROKE HER HEART

AS SHE WATCHED HER LOVER DEPART

AND WALK AWAY CASUALLY FROM HER LIFE

HOLDING HANDS WITH HIS DEAR WIFE …………….

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BRIDES OF CHRIST


SHAME UPON YOU HEARTLESS CUNTS

YOU STOLE LIVES FROM THOSE YOU HURT

YOU BATTERED WHIPPED AND STRIPPED AWAY

THOSE HUMAN CHILDHOODS IN YOUR DAY.

ON YOUR KNEES LIKE FUCKING DOGS

PRAYING HARD LIKE FUCKING HOGS

AND ALL THE WHILE STRIPPING SOULS

EVIL EMITTING THROUGH YOUR HOLES

YOUR EVIL MINDS AND HEARTS OF STEAL

EVER PRESENT AT THE WHEEL

THE WHEEL THAT STEERED THE COURSE OF LIFE

FOR THOSE WITH CHILD WHO WERE NOT WIFE

YOU EVIL CUNTS SHOULD ROT IN HELL

UNDER SATAN’S WICKED SPELL

FOR IF YOUR SO CALLED GOD EXISTS

THEN SO CALLED SATAN SLIT THE WRISTS

OF A  GOD YOU SPOKE OF FULL OF LOVE.

THIS SHINING POWER FROM UP ABOVE WHO

DID NOT EXIST IN YOUR CRUEL EYES

AND YOUR FAITH WAS BUILT  ON LIES

I HOPE YOU FEEL THE FLAMES OF HELL

AS THE BEWILDERED NOW THEIR STORIES TELL

SOLDIERS OF CHRIST , IMPOSTORS OF GOD

I SPIT ON YOUR GRAVES WHILST TURNING  THE SOD……………………………

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THE COWARD


I GAVE YOU MY HEART, MY LOVE MY LIFE

EVEN THOUGH I WAS NOT YOUR WIFE

WE KNEW IT WAS WRONG, AND YET SO RIGHT

AS WE HELD EACH OTHER THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT

I TRUSTED YOU WITH MY BODY AND SOUL

YOU MADE ME FEEL ALIVE AND WHOLE

BUT ALAS THIS LOVE COULD NOT SURVIVE

THERE WAS THE PROBLEM OF YOUR WIFE

YOU BROKE MY HEART IN TWO FOR SURE

BUT IT WILL MEND, ILL FIND A CURE.

I WILL SAVE WHAT LITTLE HOPE I CAN

YOU SHOULDN’T CALL YOURSELF A MAN

TIME WILL PASS , AS IT DOES IN LIFE

AND I SHALL PRAY FOR YOUR DEAR WIFE

AND THANK THE LORD FOR SPARING ME

FROM FURTHER YEARS OF INDIGNITY

WHICH I WOULD HAVE SUFFERED HAD I STAYED

I’M CHECKING OUT , MY BILL IS PAID!

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PAIN KILLER


I WENT TO THE DOCTOR, AND GUESS WHAT HE TOLD ME,

HE SAID GIRL U GOTTA COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS THAT YOU GOT!

SO WHAT IF YOUR HUSBAND DRINKS HIS LIFE AWAY

AND YOU’RE DROWNING SLOWLY  IN THE ROT!

GIRL YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL 

YOU GOT WHAT YOU DESERVED

NOW GO YOU HOME AND DRY YOUR TEARS

YOUR’E JUST A BIT UNNERVED

ILL GIVE YOU PILLS TO NUMB YOUR SOUL

AND TAKE AWAY YOUR BLUES

AND YOU CAN DO THE WOMAN ROLE 

IN ANY WAY YOU CHOSE

CAUSE NOBODY REALLY GIVES A SHIT

YOUR STORY IS SO OLD

MEN WILL ALWAYS RULE THE WORLD

WELCOME TO THE FOLD.

 

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HOLD ME


HOLD MY ACHING BODY TIGHT

AND LOVE IT FIERCELY THROUGH THE  NIGHT

MASSAGE MY SOUL SO TIRED AND LOW

AND TELL ME THAT YOU LOVE ME SO.

SHOW ME LIGHT WHEN ALL IS DARK

AWAKE WITH ME TO A SINGING LARK.

WET MY LIPS SO PARCHED AND DRY

WIPE AWAY THE TEARS I CRY………..

MAKE THIS BLACKNESS GO AWAY

AT LEAST UNTIL ANOTHER DAY………

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THE GOOD SHEPHERD


SHE SPOKE WITH PASSION THAT VERY DAY

AS WE FOLDED SHEETS IN A CARING WE

THE LAUNDERETTE WAS COSY AND WARM

A HAVEN FROM THE HECTIC STORM.

SHE SPOKE OF LIFE WITH PASSION CLEAR

OF LOVE AND ANGER, DANGER AND FEAR.

SHE SPOKE OF HOW SHE FELT INSIDE

TO A PERFECT STRANGER , FULL OF PRIDE.

HER EYES SO BROWN, BUT HOLDING TEARS

OF PENT UP FRUSTRATION HELD FOR YEARS.

HER DREAMS AND HOPES AND WANTS SHE SHARED

EVEN IN KNOWING THAT NOBODY CARED

AND AS THE LAST SHEET FOUND ITS HOME

SHE TURNED HER HEAD SO ALL ALONE

TO WIPE A TEAR THAT  ESCAPED HER EYE

SHE KNEW THAT HERE SHE COULD’NT CRY….

NO, THAT WOULD KEEP TILL SHE GOT HOME,

THAT PLACE WHERE SHE DID DWELL ALONE.

ALONE WITH PEOPLE WHO MADE HER SO,

HER SOUL OR HEART THEY’D NEVER KNOW.

THE STRANGER SMILED AND FELT HER PAIN

A SHARED CONNECTION, ALL IN VAIN…

FOR WE BOTH KNEW HER WINGS WERE CLIPPED

BUT JUST FOR A MOMENT SHE NEARLY SLIPPED.

HER HEART HAD OPENED, HER THOUGHTS SO PURE

EVEN KNOWING THERE WAS  NO CURE.

I OFTEN WONDER HOW SHE IS TODAY

AND DID SHE EVER FIND A WAY

SO MANY OF US TRAPPED IN HOLES

THAT EAT AWAY AT OUR VERY SOULS.

I HOPE SHE FOUND A ROUTE OF HOPE

AND OVER TIME SHE UNDID THE ROPE.

THAT ROPE THAT BOUND HER SPIRIT TIGHT

AND STOPPED HER WINGS FROM TAKING FLIGHT.

FOR OFTEN NOW AS I ADVANCE THROUGH YEARS,

I THINK ABOUT HER HELD BACK TEARS

AND UNDERSTAND JUST HOW SHE WAS FEELING

WHILST WITH THIS LIFE HER SOUL WAS DEALING.

SHE WAS A SHEPHERD, THOUGH SHE DIDN’T KNOW!

AND I A SHEEP , I MOVED WITH THE FLOW……..

BUT AS WE FOLDED SHEETS THAT DAY

A PART OF ME I GAVE AWAY

I KNEW SHE TOUCHED ME DEEP INSIDE

EVEN THOUGH I WAS A CHILD.

I GLIMPSED AT THE FUTURE FAR AWAY.

AND YET I KNEW ID SEE THE DAY

WHEN I WOULD HOLD BACK TEARS INSIDE

AND TALK TO A STRANGER WITH SUCH PRIDE

AND KNOW THE HOPELESSNESS OF THIS LIFE

AS JUST A ANOTHER MOTHER AND WIFE…………………………………

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THE OTHER WOMAN


THE OTHER WOMAN STAYS AT THE SIDE

WAITING AND WATCHING, HOLDING HER PRIDE.

THE OTHER WOMAN ALOOF AND ALONE

CHECKING MESSAGES ON HER PHONE.

SUSPENDED IN A HANGING FASHION

SHE SELLS HER SOUL FOR A BIT OF PASSION.

LIVING IN A HYPER-REALITY

GRATEFUL FOR LOVE GIVEN IN CHARITY.

KNOWING DEEP WITHIN HER HEART

THE DAY WILL COME WHEN THEY WILL PART.

THE OTHER WOMAN DABBLES IN DREAMS,

MAKING PLANS, AND PLANNING SCHEMES,

WHILST ALL THE TIME SHE  FULLY KNOWS

THAT ONLY A POISON RIVER FLOWS.

MAKING LOVE FROM NOWT AT ALL

WAITING FOR THIS CAD TO CALL.

THE OTHER WOMAN SELLING HER SOUL

FOR ONE WHO LL NEVER MAKE HER WHOLE.

THE OTHER WOMAN USED AND BETRAYED

ALWAYS ANXIOUS AND SO AFRAID

THE OTHER WOMAN AVOIDING LIFE

IN THE SHADOW OF ‘HIS’ WIFE….

THE OTHER WOMAN LIVES IN A TOWER

RELINQUISHING ALL HER INNER POWER

FOR ONE WHO NEVER WILL BE HER KNIGHT,

AND IS HAPPY TO KEEP HER OUT OF SIGHT.

THE OTHER WOMEN CONDEMNED TO DEATH

A WALKING CORPSE, SHE KNOWS AND YET..

SHE STILL LIVES ON WITH HOPE AND DESIRE

FOREVER RELIGHTING HER DYING FIRE.

 

 

 

 

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